apprehensive

In a couple of days I get to see my mom, twin, brother-in-law, niece and sister. I will be spending time with them along with my husband for some days in Florida. I am looking forward to being in warm weather, fishing, rafting, sun bathing, swimming...the probably lies with just being forced to hear all the family drama that I get to stay out of because of the distance.
How do i deal with this? I just have that feeling in my gut that there will be an argument or something that will really bother me that I will need to leave the house to get fresh air. Every year since we've made this a mini family reunion, it usually happens. There just has been things on my mind that I will probably need to say once I am there. I hope it's a good idea because I don't want our vacation to be ruined.
I will update on this posting once all things are said and done (just to have a follow up).

It's 48 outside and the heat in the apartment...well I can't really feel it. I have a cold. My nose is red and raw. I keep blowing it and feel like I am going to need to put Vaseline on it soon. I have been going to work with my already sick kids. I probably caught something from them. I can't sleep because I can't breathe through my nose and I don't want to have a sore throat in the morning. I end up sitting up with my head back against the wall. I'm not writing this for sympathy, just venting.

My students had their winter performance today. I love my job!I got just pleasure seeing them do their little dance that I choreographed and hear them sing winter songs with the rest of the 1st and 2nd graders. They blended right in. I am so proud of each and every one of them. It was so cute! The community room was packed. Some parents were even standing. The principal said to me that next year they will have to perform 2 days for parents. It was a success.

I had my 2 IEPs after school today. They went by quickly because they each had similar goals. After the meeting, and pretty much after speaking with my students parents, I KNOW I am in the right field. I am the kind of person that loves helping people now matter how much it takes from me. I enjoy seeing people happy. I don't need anything in return but when I here from a parent they see how much joy and how much their child has learned, it makes me so happy. I give parents hope that their child can function in society. That their kid does have a future. I know I am giving back to the educational system for my success at a NPS. If it wasn't for the NPS that I attended, I don't know if I would be teaching special education. I know I would be doing something with my life; dedicating it to helping others.

I just have to say it again and again, I am so lucky to have such a wonderful job, a wonderful husband, wonderful students and a wonderful school community.

Tonight

Petey is such a good husband. We got to go holiday shopping and get goodies for the little ones. I love looking and buying for babies/toddlers. Right now, he is doing dishes. I know...I can't believe it. We have some NIN on in the background to set the mood for cleaning.
Peter's company is having their business party tonight so we are tidying up the place in case people come over afterward. It's at a restaurant close by and the party ends at 9 so you know...those engineers like playing Wii.
I need to shower and straighten my hair. Peter wants to show me off. I get to show him off because he got a nice new sweater for tonight. We get to match with the same colors. I LOVE when Peter is willing to match with me. I know it's cheesy but I love it!
Ok, Peter is reminding me to get into the shower because it will probably take 2 hours to get fully ready. Fun Fun!!

thoughts

I LOVE music. I love finding new bands that make me want to buy their album!
This may sound gross but I haven't brushed my hair in about 2 weeks. I have already told Peter, when we have a family, I want dreadlocks again. I know we aren't having kids for some time but man...I'm itchin for them! I need to do something with my hair. Peter isn't to keen about me having dreads but if I can continue being a teacher, why not? I know I will end up combing and straightening it for Peter's company party which is Saturday. I just love thick, messy hair!
I am trying to finish my last paper for the semester and I just can't do it. I keep having to take a break. I am really looking forward to my vacation. I sure need it!

A wonderful day

I love my classroom. They are all so cute in their own way. I just love what they say. They are still so sweet, innocent and charming.
On Mondays, while I take attendance, I say the students name and ask them to tell the class what they did on the weekend. Today, I heard "I went to the foot doctor." "I went to Las Vegas and went swimming in the pool." "I got my Christmas tree." When I get to my set of twins, I have them both looking at each other giggling, "My brother...hehe...he farted on my head!" This is being said while laughing. I then ask his brother "Did you do that?" His response, while laughing, "It was fun!" I just love these kids!!
I called my grandma before work today. She isn't doing well so I felt like I needed to hear her voice. She talked! The last time I spoke to her, I just talked. She was pretty much sleeping and I just would talk and she would listen and not say anything. Just hearing her say hello and tell me she thinks of me too just made my day. She was alert and remembered I lived in CA. I know the time will come soon and feel like I need to try to talk with her every day before she passes on...even if she isn't alert. I know she loves me and knows I love her. It is just a slow, depressing situation but I'm sure each time she hears from a grandchild or great grandchild, makes her smile.

ewww, I feel gross

I had such a nice evening at Sarah and Serefin's place for the boxing match. I would watch boxing without feeling sick to my stomach but last night, while Oscar got his butt kicked, I couldn't stand watching it. I ended up staying to watch the rest of that fight and then all the dudes wanted to watch kick boxing. I got sucked into it. I don't know what I stayed to watch it. Peter was in his element...hanging with the bro's. There was good food so many of the women stayed in the kitchen and enjoyed talking and playing with the two little ones- Dylan and Ethan. They are such cute little boys. I think when the time comes, I want a little boy.
This morning, I was so tired. Peter and I never go to bed after 11 so heading to bed around 12:30 wasn't the best move. Today, I feel boogery and have a headache. I hope next week since I am done with my first semester of classes, I can rest. Every weekend, I am doing something. I have no time to relax when I don't feel well. I am thinking about what's on my TO DO list. I can get through some-
buy gift for Tracy (recently started chemo)
email songs to Scott (getting married next week)
plan book for the next 2 weeks
write transition plan
begin writing 2 IEPs due 12/17
food shopping
work on holiday cards
IGNORE FOOTBALL THAT WILL BE ON

Procrastinate

I decided to start a blog. It will contribute to my procrastinating on assignments for school. I decided to do this while I am baking brownies and waiting for them to be done. Football is on in the background so I can't do much anyway. I can't stand the sound of football.
I will probably use this blog to talk about my day with my cute students. They really are an adorable bunch of kids. I will also talk about family- my husband and extended family drama. I may use this to vent about school work and stress related to work.